Sorry I didn't write last night, but I was having my first bout with relapse. I so wanted to take some relaxer and just perm my hair. I even watched a YouTube video on "healthy relaxers". I watched how this man styled this woman't hair and she shook it effortlessly. Oh, I wanted some of the relaxer crack.
So, to combat it, I put on a lace wig. I have TONS OF THEM. I have long, short, medium, long...I have everything. I just wanted glistening flowing hair. I went out, I shook my hair, I let it hang out all over, and I was SET! Until I remembered why I gave up relaxers and weaves in the first place. I felt so fake, unreal, un-me. It was like all my beauty was based on the societal context of my hair and not me? The real me. Yes, I looked good, but I felt like I was cheating.
As soon as I got home, I took it off. Im me again. Feeling a little lost, but then I looked at pictures of short 'Big Chops" and TWAs (Teeny Weeny Afro's) and I felt like I had some support and some hope.
You learn patience :-) when going natural because there is no such thing as quick results.
Hair Regime Today
Moisturize-Wash and Go
Multi-Vitamin
Lusti's Organics Sheen, Hair Mayonnaise, Sheen, and Jail (Its winter time..GOT TO HYDRATE)
