And this year, I am learning to let many things go. My new friend told me today that, " I deserve a fresh start. To let go of the past and actually have something to look forward too." You know what, he was right and I want that for myself as well. I think allowing myself to go natural shows the rebirth that I am feeling on the inside as well as the outside.
I didn't know how much dead weight I was holding on to. As I sat oiling my hair with olive oil, I thought...wow, (not only that my head was feeling really good from being rubbed) but how freeing the letting go process was. I was letting go of the manufactured idea of beauty. I was letting go the of what others idea of beauty for me should be. I was letting go of people and things that were no longer good for me. I was letting go of the "hair crack relaxer", lost love, ended friendships, hurt from the loss of my brother, bad jobs, and countless other things. I was letting go. I am letting go. I enjoy letting go. I have let go.
I am starting off fresh. My short cropped curly hair proves that. My new friendship(s) prove that. My new lease on life prove that. Now, because I have this fresh start, it doesn't mean I will discount and forget the past. No, I am going to cherish the past, kiss it, and thank it...but also let it go and remember it is the past. The past helped shape me to some extent, but I won't let it continue to over power the future. I thank God for the past.
Now, on to my future. This year, I am going to go on job interviews, celebrate Valentines Day, take long walks, enjoy school, be part of my church, pamper and love myself, go out of town, work hard, watch my natural hair grow out, cherish those who love me, have my own again, and be more than I already am. I am going to take it in small dosages. I am going to learn patience, how to nurture, how to love, be mature, and how to care for myself once more...and all this will start...by caring for my natural hair.
I'm not going to say that every day is going to be perfect and some days my goals are going to seem unattainable, but...at least knowing that I am going to bloom and grown and develop like a rose each and everyday makes me happy.
Hair care tip tonight...
Olive oil (natural)
Lusti's organic olive oil sheen
Dr. Miracle's Hot Grow (oooh my head is tingly)
