Au Naturale

So, I decided to go natural....AGAIN. I have a problem maintaining ONE continuous look. I think the last time I had one look was when I was sick and very ill. I was too ill and too tired to care about my hair and what it looked like anyway. But anyway, I had a nice afro..then one day, I saw a jar of perm and gave up on 6 months of hair growth. This year I hope to do even better. Actually, this year I WANT AND KNOW I will do better.

I have gone back and forth so many times, but at the end of the day ...I honestly like my afro. I don't have to do much too it and its just the way it is. I don't even have to spend all morning trying to fix it. And yet, I let the pressures of beauty and society get to me..and I pop open the perm.

I think this is part of the first step of me finding myself. Knowing myself, seeing what I look like in my natural state, and just growing. I feel if I focus on my hair, it will help me in some way. Sounds odd huh? But it has been that way for many African American women. It is how we express ourselves. I just think I have been Overly expressing myself to the point where I don't know who or what I am. I have went to long, short, lace wigs, normal wigs, braids, and weaves. Oh, the money I have spent on these silly things.

Well, step one to no longer being lost has commenced.