Wow, it is already March...
Who would have thought that the time would fly so quickly...and with so many frustrations as well. I have completely gone on a do nothing to my hair fit. Since starting, I was so overwhelmed as well as excited to try new things to my hair. I was taking my vitamins, rubbing my scalp, telling myself, "I love my natural self" in the mirror, and just about any other positive things you could think of.
It was growing, fast, but then it stopped. And when I found that my hair was being a misfit and I had to cut it, I cried. I didn't want to, but then I had to. After cutting it, I notice that it was lively and doing what I wanted it to do again, but cutting it had broken my spirit in a way.
I bought three wigs, yes..I did, hoping this would make me feel better. Maybe, if I didn't look at my hair, I wouldn't be disdained and relive my little defeat over and over again. I stopped taking my vitamins regularly and my Doo Grow oil has been left untouched. Now, with the hassle of school and work, I just wet it, add my oil and conditioner, then my gel to define my curls, and I roll out. I don't see how it is possible for all those young women to have time to do their hair on those vlogs with a busy schedule.
But yesterday, I fell in love with my natural hair. I was like..."Why am I trying to make something happen? It just has to happen?" Instead of hoping what I will have, I thank God for what I have. I just learned to be...happy. I learned to like my curls, my defined hair line, and not worrying about it all the time. My favorite thing is walking out in the rain and not worrying about a thing. For the first time, I stopped thinking about the frustration and noted the positives.
I don't have to worry about hair spray or a lot of products.
I don't have to worry about rain
I don't have to worry about waking up an hour early to do my hair
I don't have to worry about a touch up
Basically, I just decreased the Black Female's number one stress in life...her hair. And since transitioning, I don't have to worry at all. And it is wonderful.
Well, that's my take for today
