A Head-ucation

My hair is being stubborn with me with me right now.

It is growing, but not as fast as I want it too. Spending hours watching natural femme fatals twisting their long hair, smacking it in styles, enjoying their cornrows have made me so impatient. Ugh, to the point I don't even want to watch anymore. At first, I used all the head-ucation (that's what I call it) to support and give me hope of what I could look like by this summer... but now I am feeling a bit despondent. As I said, my hair is stubborn.

As my neighbor said in the kitchen, "Your hair grows fast". But it isn't fast enough for me. I look in the mirror, I stare at it, I oil it, and I mentally will it to grow faster, do something, so I can get out of this TWA. I want something different. I want to be like those other women. I want to be cute and adorable so that everyone can go oooh, ahhhh, and you have pretty hair.

But then, I realized that those women with the long healthy locks...waited. They too went through what I went through. They had to wait a year to two years to be able to shake their manes. They went through and are still going through the protective styles, the oiling the scalp, scarves, and wash n go's. This wasn't something that happened over night. Also, they allowed it to happen. It took a lot to allow it to happen. A change in their idea of beauty, of mind, of themselves, and how they treat themselves. As I look at the many before and after pictures...they even looked a bit healthier. It probably wasn't easy for them.

I learned from the Hair Growth and Maintenance  site that STRESS makes everything thing that you are doing not worth "a hill of beans" if one is not learning to lower it. I have stopped running this week. I am ashamed to admit, but I will return. I have a lot of stress. A lot of negativity (as you see above). A lot of the past haunting me. And a lot of things I need to let go. I need to change in order to be an over all healthy person not only for my hair, but my well being.

My head-ucation for month two is...patience and calmness. To except the things I can't change and to change the things I can.  I have been natural since November 2011 (3 months natural). I want it so to be month 6, but I am going to learn and wait, enjoy the growth and the ride. I may not like it, but in order to succeed and continue this journey I will learn to over come to cherish the end results.

Ugh...waiting..waiting..waiting....

Hair regimen....
Biotin
Water (Don't comb without it)
Motion's CPR Leave in conditioner
Activator (Just to set my curl pattern for the night)
Lusti's Organic's Hair Creme
Told myself in the mirror..I am beautiful and my TWA is thick and beautiful